“Vulture Serenade” sold so quickly I didn’t get a chance to hold it close and contemplate it as I usually do. I’m always glad to release pieces into the wider world and am happy the vulture painting flew the coop. After all, what’s the use of dying atop a huge pile of unsold work? Even so, I often replace works with something similar in style when things turn over more quickly than expected. I’ve done it this time too.
I’ve continued to explore vintage popular paintings of Iran. A good portion of this opus consists of sweet, fantastical confections involving harem ladies with a hint of lesbian love, providing a sly, appealing edge. What’s better than one pretty lady? Two pretty ladies, preferably two who are interested in one another and not shy about presenting themselves for another’s pleasure. The above reference work is an example.
I kept the general idea of the figures in this sketch but quickly discovered just how formulaic and strange the reference work really is. The canon of proportions of the original involves a shocking amount of elongation of the figures, just like the last time. This creative habit may have been the result of artists restricted to viewing ladies through veils and burkas, but it could also be an aesthetic decision to provide as much space as possible for fancy dresses and over-the-top ornamentation. The figures appear grotesque without those aids however, as I quickly discovered. I shortened everything quite a bit while retaining the general idea, including hand position and drapery, but the fox is all mine.
There is a more laid-back color palate on the floor tile this time in order to lessen visual competition with the subjects, but for some reason this led to all sorts of agonies when it came to color choices for the ladies themselves. Every painting offers its own gifts and challenges and these most often develop while working through the project. Every creative decision opens some doors and closes others and nothing is ever really wrong (India taught me that all colors go together), but that’s not how it feels as a work inches forward. The truth is, even though it might appear that my work is pre-determined as soon as the sketch is completed, this is never actually the case. Colors and patterns are decided on the fly and all details are done free-hand and not consciously pre-planned.
The finished work is attractive and ornamental, but the fox knocks things away from formula and straight into strange-land, which is exactly how I like it. If an image is entirely predictable, how can it possibly be true?
I’m always entering shows and mostly not getting into them, but a recent rejection felt worse than usual. It’s always a crap shoot in this biz, but when you’ve tried three times with different curators and come up with the same result, it can be rather hard. Every fellow artist will know exactly how the inner dialog went as I considered that, once again, my best work didn’t make the cut. Only the art gods know if it ever will but, in the meantime, a cloud of doubt and embarrassment has settled upon the mind like a thick, vile cloak. Sometimes this whole art thing feels just like High School. I remain the eccentric outlier, an indulgence on the side but never a member of the club. Joke’s on me. After years of trying to meditate the ego away, it turns out that art is the best ashram there is for wearing it down. Note to self: if you can’t endure getting your feelings hurt, don’t be an artist.
Partly as a way of softening the current psychological funk, I’m throwing myself into music. Nothing purifies the spirit like playing the accordion and singing your heart out.